|My Emmi Sue laying on our bed, before the massive weight loss began.|
I have been doing a lot of reading on the subject of feline chronic kidney disease, as I wish to be as educated on this as much as possible, yet I find myself bursting out in tears many times throughout the day and I'm completely inconsolable. I'm trying to enjoy each moment with Emmi Sue as I know our time together will not be as long as I had hoped, yet when I look into her pretty green eyes, I feel she knows something is happening inside her tiny body. I will do everything in my power to keep her alive and make her life as happy as possible, yet I feel I will also know when it's time to let go.. no matter how much it will kill me. It's killing me right now just to type those words! I promised her, and her sisters, that I will love them and give them the best lives for as long as they live, but I will not be so selfish as to keep them alive when they are in severe pain and needing me to let go. I love them far too much to do this. I realize I am getting ahead of myself to think this way already, but I'm trying to prepare myself for what will, inevitably, happen much sooner than I had anticipated.
|My sweet Emmi Sue's adorable little face ♥|