"It breaks my heart to write this post as my life will never be the same again. I woke up this morning to find my Emmi Sue had gone to sleep to never awaken me with her sweet kisses again. She was with me for 14 years, 8 months and 21 days of her almost 16 years of life. I only lost out on her first year and how I wish I would have known her as a kitten. She must have been as much of a joy as a baby as she was for me for the short time I was given with her. I have no words to express my utter sadness and feeling of complete loss without my first little girl here with me, but I know Emmi Sue is now at peace and no longer hurting. I just wish I could have done more for her or been holding her as she took her last breath. I have many regrets from these last few days and will think about this for as long as I live. Emmi Sue, you were never just a cat to me. You were my daughter and no one else will ever take your place. I feel so empty without your sweet little body in my arms, your face nuzzling against mine, your tiny hands reaching up to touch my cheeks, the way you never wanted to leave my embrace! My sweet angel, you will never, EVER be forgotten." ♥
Emmi Sue's last couple days were anything but peaceful for her and I will regret many things that happened for a very long time, if not forever. She deserved so much better than what became of her in the end, even though I know in my heart she understood that everything I was doing was out of absolute pure love for her.
In my grief, I was somehow able to write a few letters of thank you to a few of the members of tanya's support group, and I would like to share a large part of one such letter at this time.
|Mommy and Emmi Sue in 1999|