This is also one of my nephew's birthday. My cousin Patty's middle son, Sergio, is 27 years old and THAT is unreal to me since the last time I saw him, he was just 11. Ugh, how time flies. He is now married and has a little girl of his own and his wife already had a daughter, so he is a father of two beautiful girls. His younger brother turned 21 earlier this month (yeah, that makes me feel old!) so I've been missing my family like crazy lately.
If I were to ask my parents to send me to Bolivia at any time, they would do so without hesitation and take care of my three girls with as much love and care as possible. But this is something I cannot do. With my cats getting older and two of them on twice daily medications, leaving them for any significant amount of time is not an option I allow myself to have because they come first in my life. I do not feel as if I am sacrificing my own happiness for them as they are my children, even if they are feline. My biggest joy is seeing their little faces each day when I wake and hearing their sweet voices meowing and purring as I speak their names. They are my world as much as I am theirs.
|Substitute your kitties for "another person" and that's me!|
|Oscar, Andres, Sergio and me.. 1996|
|Pepe, Valeria (Sergio's wife), Camila, Sergio, Estefania, Andres, Gabriel (Oscar's son), Oscar and Patty.. 2012|
I long to hear their voices and spend time with my family and to get to know the newest members but I know this will not happen for many, many years. And by the time my little girls are long gone, my health will probably not allow me to travel and I have made my peace with this. I couldn't travel right now, even if I wanted to.. this much I know. I guess being aware of my limitations helps my stress levels stay put much easier.