So after this change took place, my depression vanished almost completely, telling me that our friendship had been very toxic for me. It's not that he was/is a bad person, but there are people we are not meant to be close to for long periods of time. In my life he was one such person. Now, I find myself smiling, laughing, enjoying my cats more than ever and seeing life as I had once before. I still cannot believe all of this has occurred after one change, but I'm very proud of myself for having realized what had been bringing me down and for having the presence of mind to end it.
My parents picked me up for my my regular, twice weekly chiropractic appointment today and we headed to Godfather's Pizza for dinner afterwards. The humidity rose so much from the time we left the chiro to when we arrived at the pizza place, only 20 minutes away, that it was stifling! It was even more humid by the time we finished eating and headed to Walmart to pick up a few items but I was not prepared for what it did to my body.
When we arrived at Walmart my mom, who usually walks by my side, took off ahead of me and Dad so she could return/exchange a couple items. The moment I stepped out of the car, I knew something was terribly wrong. My right leg was weaker than it had felt in years, but then I noticed my dad was walking off to catch up with my mom. Hmm, this was strange but it was no big deal either. I had my quad cane and knew I could make my way over the crosswalk and into the store, no matter how slow it would be.. and I was terribly slow. Once inside Walmart, I noticed there were no motorized carts available! There was absolutely no way I would be able to walk any more, so I called my dad over and asked if he could check the other side of the store for one as I very slowly inched my way to a nearby bench to wait for him.
Shopping was fine but for the first time in I don't even know how long, I was afraid to get up from the scooter once were finished at the store. My dad headed out to the car to load our purchases while mom stood near me as I ungracefully made my way out of Walmart and waited for Dad to pick me up from the front of the store. I didn't have enough strength or coordination to walk all the way to the car, even though Dad had parked in one of the nearby handicap spaces.
|"When you have Multiple Sclerosis your body becomes your worst enemy."|