|"When I'm alone, I think. When I think, I remember. When I remember, I feel pain. When I feel pain, I cry. When I cry, I can't stop..."|
Jinger came to my rescue when I was sitting here bawling my eyes out once again. For someone who doesn't live in the past when it comes to her health, I sure as hell can't move on from losing my little girl. I have no idea how to get over missing her. How do people move beyond things like this?
Yesterday was 3 weeks since I quit smoking and from what I've heard and read, "anger, anxiety, depression, difficulty concentrating, impatience, insomnia, and restlessness are valid withdrawal symptoms that peak within the first and last 2-4 weeks" (Wikipedia). I will readily admit to having a craving for "real" cigarettes, even though there are days when I only take a puff or two from my e-cigarette. I've been getting all kinds of strange headaches and terrible fatigue. There have been times I'll be sitting at my computer and fall asleep! I have never in my life done that before, at least not in the middle of the day.
|I hear this in my head and hope, some day, it will be true.|